Stressed!

I am feeling a lot stressed these days, due to work. Our school has a new Principal and she has scolded us too in the last week. This week, I am feeling a lot of stress due to what happened last week and I don't feel like talking to anyone too, as they are all casual about things. I have always been serious about my work, but still I am feeling that I am may be not being up to the mark. She has not said anything specifically to me, but, still I am not taking things well. God, please help me to come out of this.

I am talking a bit more to kids.

I am realizing today that I am talking a bit more to kids these days or may be the kids are not the same anymore. I need to talk comparatively less, from tomorrow. The kids whom I have taught in the past, were receptive of me, but the ones whom I taught now, kind of make fun of me. I will keep this in my mind, while interacting with them from tomorrow, esp. VA n VB.

I used to think that by interacting with them, I can make a relationship, with them, but the kids are not the same anymore. Also, these kids have spent less time with me, unlike kids in the past. It's not their fault, but I can't loose my dignity. Sometimes, they comment about my marriage and at other times, about my kids, which I don't enjoy much.

God, please take care of them, as I am being a bit conscious and touchy.

A kid asked if I was married.

A girl kid of another class, asked if I was married and I said no. She said that I don't look like I was not married, not actually these words, but this is what I understood. I didn't feel very bad, but felt a bit conscious. There are things in my life, which are not under my control.

Kids touch my feet.

A no. of boys rush and touch my feet on daily basis and I like too. I may not have noticed, but I haven't seen them doing  the same, with other teachers. 

Answered a question asked by a kid ...!

In our school, preparations for the Golden Jubilee are going on. A lot of our time, is spent sitting with participants and managing them, mostly till the time, their turn comes. A girl student of Class IX (who is a volunteer) asked me, if I get bore, while sitting with these kids. I told her that what I am doing here is my job. It's duty which is assigned to me and I can't be bored here. Being bored and not liking something is a part of home stuff.

I liked the look on her face, as she was receptive of what I had said.

I love my job, as I can truly make a difference, without denying the fact that very few kids have the capability to listen to what the teacher says, leave apart understanding it. But, I am doing my bit and I am proud of myself.

Everything, in the end, comes down to business, these days...!

I attended the Parents' Orientation Programme in the school today. It was all going well, but in the end, it came down to business/marketing/advertising gimmick/propaganda. 'Advertising' is the buzzword these days.

Kids made me feel special on Karwachauth...!

All the teachers were dressed up beautifully, on the occasion of Karwachauth, yesterday, in school. I was dressed up in my usual way, wore a suit with red in it. As kids (girls and boys, who said for the first time)  on Std. VI saw me, they came running and told me that I was looking beautiful. I replied telling them that how can I look beautiful, other teachers are looking so beautiful. They said collectively that "Simplicity has its own beauty". I felt special and thanked them.

Due to the happenings in my personal life, I am sad these days. But, liked what kids said and that brought smile on my lips.